I have a couple of go-to songs whenever I’m in the mood to sing.. and I was just singing along to one of them.
and even though - for years now - I’ve known every word, every breath, every ounce of it, just from memory, I feel like just now was the first time I’ve ever really heard it and understood what it meant. I almost cried. it was privately embarrassing and slightly heartbreaking.
to me, it’s the kind of thing that you can understand to a point by living vicariously through others, but when you realize that it’s actually you living it this time, whatever feeling or experience portrayed in whatever song finally actually resonates with you, and suddenly you actually feel the happiness or the pain or whatever it is.
it was fucking magical.